no one wants me. im too needy, too desperate, too dumb. i never do the right thing. theres no balance with me. either im too little or too much. 

my heart hurts

nick jonas makes me sad

I’m doing that thing again where I alienate everyone and then feel lonely. I don’t know how to be a friend I’m sorry. My life is shit. cuss words wuss words cuss words. this is exactly why no one loves me. i dont know how to love back. fuck me Im such a horrible person

I often fantasize about destroying my body. tearing at my skin with my finger nails, wishing there was a way to rip away my thumb and watch as the skin of my forearm was pulled away with it. idk man maybe im on a self destructive path. this is probably the result of me realizing that i am nothing. i have no value, im  worthless.